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Marcin died.
yesterday.

and I can't even close the skype conversation window with His name on it, where his sister contacts me, because...
because I won't see His name on the skype-bar any more.
I won't talk to Him any more.

it's absolutely egoistic.
but it's we who left here, still alive, that have to deal with our sadness, fact that He is not around any more, look at His things, clean His room.

for me the most personal, important thing is smell. nowadays it's mainly perfumes. and thanks to a coincidence I have His 212 by Carolina Herrera.
for me there is nothing stronger to wake up memories than a smell...


all I can see is emptiness, black whole in places He used to be...


trzymaj się Cinu...
może tam nie ma przynajmniej swędzenia ;)