disappointed...

i feel disappointed...

why?
because i really hoped i am lucky this time.

that he is normal, not enormously great or ideal. no, just normal.
i thought that since he is not amazing much over the average, he also doesn't have many drawbacks.

but it is not so easy.
he is not easy...

and now comes the question...

NO! actually since when i am asking questions instead of listening to my intuition??
why i am analysing if that is worth trying or not? if those disadvantages mean less or more than the benefits??
why?
and what for?



this birthday was again the crying one...

will it be like that every five years...?